Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sunday, October 25, 2009

His motto is “give before it hurts”.


If there is one word in which i would use to describe my life, it would be:

Control

When i was young, my parents controlled my life's every moment. And i don't begrudge them for that. We are all young and foolish in the early stages of our lives, and we need someone to control us, to discipline us.

And now, it seems that i try and control every aspect of my own life.

I try and control my emotions. When a friend or colleague says something which i disagree, i control myself from yelling at them. Well. I try. But sometimes i'm unsuccessful.

I try and control my body. Even though my legs haven't fully recovered from a run, i go jogging again the day after. I try and eat vegetarian food once a day, because i want to control my weight.

I try and control risks. As a engineer, i have to consider various factors in order for my component/assembly to work. If i can't mitigate them, i restrict them. So far, there hasn't been anything i can't control.

I try and control odds. Socially, there are always games to gamble. I don't like games where i can't control my odds of winning. Therefore, i only play mahjong, Big 2 and Blackjack. In such games, you can control your own cards and hence, control your odds of winning. And if you're skillful enough, you can even control your opponent's cards as well.

So far, control has serve me well. Or rather, it has become subconsciously embedded into my life, such that i don't even notice that i'm doing it.

But because i try and control every aspect of my life, i have become something even worse:
I have become boring.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Then again, if I’m not a wimp, why am I taking the path of least resistance?



"Breathe"

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Ohhh

I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

Saturday, October 10, 2009

When you’re serious about having fun, its not much fun at all!

When you buy something expensive, it is obviously valuable. Therefore, it makes complete sense that you treasure it and want to protect it somehow.

So if you bought a $120 scarf, its obviously expensive. Because, honestly, how much can scarfs cost?

So. If you had bought such a scarf, it must be treated with care.

Before you take it out, washing of hands is a must. Moreover, you must wash your hands according to the 8 simple steps as recommended by our dear and caring gah men. And no ordinary soap will do. No no, it has to be Dettol. That way, you can ensure that you get rid of all the bacteria which will infect your $120 scarf.



After washing your hands with Dettol, you need to put on your surgical gloves and face mask. Even though you've washed your hands, there is still no guarantee of the absence of germs. And you think your breath is healthy enough for your $120 scarf? No. Just no. Besides, some passer-by might sneeze and ruin your $120 scarf. So, to be safe, surgical gloves and face mask are a must.


Once you have done all that necessary preparations, you can proceed to take out your $120 scarf. Obviously, with it being so expensive, it needs to be in a hermetically-and-liquid-nitrogen sealed container. That way, you can ensure the freshness and mint condition of your $120 scarf.

And to prevent any jealous passer-by from stealing your $120 scarf, you will need to punch in the ten-digit code onto the container's number pad. No precaution is too light for your $120 scarf.

Once you've gained access, much to the amazement of people around you, you can now put on your $120 scarf. Now, i know you've washed your hands and put on the surgical gloves. But you can't be too safe, can you? So you need to use tweezers to extract your $120 scarf. Use a pair, if necessary. They have to be blunt, obviously. Otherwise, the sharp points might pierce into the 100% wool fabric and ruin it.

Once you've used the tweezers to maneuver your $120 scarf in place, you can now bask in the glory and admiration of the people around you.

Be happy and satisfied that you've taken every single reasonable step to protect your $120 scarf.

Monday, October 05, 2009

The longer you wait for the mail, the less there is in it.



"Fallin' For You"

I don't know but...
I think I maybe
fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
keep this to myself

Waiting 'til I..
know you better
I am trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling..
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my..time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
and now i found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm falling for you...
I'm falling for you...

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
and we start to dance

All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's juusst
you and me

I'm trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling...
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my.. time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think i'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
And now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

Ooh, I just can't take it..
My heart is racing..
Emotions keep spinning out...

I've been spending all my.. time
just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my..life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think i'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

Ooohhh
Ooh no no
Oooooohhhhh

Oooh, I'm falling' for ya

Sunday, October 04, 2009

I’ll bet my autopsy reveals my mouth is too big.

"A place where he belongs...

Where... I belong...

The kids from the village are afraid of me.

I haven't really done anything to them, but everyone's afraid of me.

Is it because of my silver hair? Because of my turquoise eyes?

Or... because of my cold personality?"

- Tenth Squad Captain, Hitsugaya Toushirou in Bleach Episode 239: The Awakening Hyōrinmaru! Hitsugaya's Fierce Fight.