Here I am, happy and content. But not euphoric. So now I’m no longer content. I’m unhappy. My day is ruined. I need to stop thinking while I’m ahead.

For all those out there who read my blog because of my amusing and happy posts:

If there are any in the first place.

I'm really sorry.

I have not been able to produce any posts which are the reasons for you coming here.

This is because there is a cursed block on my table. It constantly interferes with my vision, so i can't concentrate.

Somehow, i have to get around this writer's block. Hhhmm...

Life is full of precluded possibilities.

There are times when you stand at the crossroads in life and peer at the two paths in front of you.

The first path continues along your current walkway. Stable and well-trod. The second path forks out away from the current walkway. Unknown and mysterious.

As you peer ahead at the second path, the thick fog of possibility shrouds your vision. You can barely see a few meters into the second path.

However, as you stare longer, you begin to see the rewards and dreams that you have been waiting for. You start to get excited because the second path offers a lot more than the first path and is the one that you have looking for.

However, as you stare longer, you start to wonder if you were just imagining things. Perhaps those rewards and dreams aren't really there. Perhaps the second path isn't there at all. Perhaps the patrolling demons of failure and despair are waiting to tear you apart the minute you step foot onto the second path.

As you stand there and wrestle with your indecision, time flows on. You have to make a decision, one way or another.

Question is, which path do you take?

The more indecisive I am, the faster things get decided.

Work is a lot like having a run or jog.

When you get started, you find it difficult to get going. Lethargy sets in. You start wishing for your nice little warm bed to lie in.

You start your morning off in the office. Lethargy sets in. You laze around, not really wanting to start work.

Then, when you're all fired up and going, you just keep going and going. Your legs have a life of their own, carrying your body further and further. Time is always your enemy. There are always competitors and mind games to battle.

As the day progresses, you get your stuff out and keep doing your work. Your brain starts thinking faster and faster about the things you need to do, the emails you need to send out, the people you need to call. Time is always your enemy. There are always competitors and political games to battle.

When you are nearing the finishing line, your adrenaline steps in and pushes your body to the limit. You gasp for breath, but keep sprinting for the finishing line because it signifies the end.

On your last few days before your annual leave, you start clearing your work. On the very last day, you work really really late because you can sleep in and relax the next day. Your body is screaming for rest and food, but your brain keeps you going, keeps you thinking, keeps you working.

Then you stop suddenly, and your body can't react fast enough to cool your body down. You walk around, trying to relax all the tense muscles and catch your breath back.

On the first day of your leave, although you don't need to work, you wake up early as usual. You surf around, pace around, walk around. Trying to find things to do, things to occupy your restless mind, things to relax your mood.

When you try to run again, the momentum is lost and you have to build it up again. Rinse and repeat. The cycle comes in a full circle.

When you come back from your annual leave, you lost the momentum for work. You have to build up the mindset again. Rinse and repeat. The cycle comes in a full circle.

My “Plan A’s” are great. But my “Plan B’s” leave a lot to be desired.

The time now is 1.30am in the morning.

I have been tossing and turning, but i can't sleep. Earlier tonight, i felt sleepy. So i took a quick nap and woke up at 12.30am. Seeing that i was awake anyway, i logged onto Facebook for a quick check. Since then, i have not been able to get back to sleep, no matter how much i've tried.

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Checklist For A Good Night's Sleep:
1. Comfy pillow? Check.
2. Comfy quilt? Check.
3. New mattress for the bed? Check.
4. Favourite sleeping position? Check.
5. Windows open for cool night breeze? *silence*
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I'm turning on the stupid air-condition. -.-