Another mushy post...

"The Flower God's cries,
Disheveled in the Wind of Flowers.
Disheveled in the Heaven's Winds,
The Heavenly Demon laughs."
- Eighth Squad Captain, Shunsui Kyoraku in Bleach Episode 56

Just a particular verse that i really like. It holds no particular meaning and is probably just a random piece of japanese poetry. Or maybe its simply because i really like the anime Bleach. Or maybe its just me and my deluded opinion. So here is another post on my delusions. :D

"My life for your life.
My death for your life.
My life for your death.
My death for your death."
- Elven Star by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman

Love. Its like a butterfly: The more you try and catch it, the more it eludes you. When you're not looking for it, it comes to you. How many of us have looked for it and failed? I had. How many of us have truly found it? I have.

"'My life for your life.' That means that while we live, we share the joy of living with each other.
'My death for your life.' I would be willing to lay down my life to save yours.
'My life for your death.' I will spend my life avenging your death, if i can't prevent it.
'My death for your death.' A part of me will die, when you do."
- Elven Star by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman

Perhaps its me and my deluded opinion, but i think love can cure anything in a relationship. Anger. Depression. Frustration. With soothing words, love can drive such feelings away, as the sun drives the thunderclouds. I love my oliphant. She has always been there for me, sharing, encouraging and supporting. I can't wait for us to start our lives together. Is there any other feeling can be better? Yes. The knowledge that she loves me for who i am, and loves me for how much i love her.

"I used to think love would be enough, that it was some type of magical elixir we could sprinkle over the world and end all hatred. I know now, it's not true. Love's water is clear and pure and sweet, but it isn't magic. It won't change anything."
- Elven Star by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman

So, call me naive. Call me innocent. Call me ignorant. Call me whatever you want. I will still continue to believe that love is paramount in a relationship and that it can cure anything.

But will it end all hatred in the world? Sorry, but i'm not that naive. Hatred is a bitter-tasting brew. Some people have drank it for so long that they have become a hollow shell, forgeting the sweet taste of life. Perhaps they need a new reason to live for. Perhaps they need love.

"He had held onto his hate for so long, his hands would feel empty without it. Perhaps it would be better to find something other than death to fill them."
- Elven Star by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman

And then, there was silence...

Imagine a silence so palpable, so heavy and yet so comforting and so encompassing. In that silence, there is not a slightest hint of sound, nor whisper. You can only hear the sound of your breathing, but not the sound of the wind's breath.

You can see the vast earth that lay before you, the sprawl of buildings and the green blanket of flora. You look down and feel the slightest tinge of height-phobia, for you are standing on nothing more than the transparent air. But the view draws your eyes and your fear is banished away.

You see the fog teasing the lake, flitting, streaming and circling. As the sunlight pierces through the air, lines of fog trail off in an evaporating wake, weaving nature's own unique tapestry.

That, my friends, is how i felt, heard and saw when i sat in the hot-air balloon.


The trip, i daresay, was a success. I had good fun and was able to throw off, for a moment, the blanket of work, worry and weariness. It was a long drive, both to and from there. But the endless conversations, debates and questions with friends made it seem less so.

There is only one thing that i wished for in that trip. The one thing that would made my trip a lot happier and a lot more fun...

The presence of my oliphant.

Musings

(-.-) Things on my mind now:

• Winter is coming. There are cold nights and early mornings where one can smell the crisp fresh air. That sure brings back memories. Memories of love and my oliphant. Hee... :)
  
• We are off to Canberra on the Easter weekend for the hot-air balloon show. Got abt 7 of us (including Big Banana, Caffeine Addict and Rosie >.<) going, so its gonna be fun. At least, i hope it will be fun. Knowing how boring Canberra is, i'll give it a 50-50 chance of having fun mainly coz we have quite a group with us.
  
• The second point above was so not to make you guys jealous. heh.
  
• Thesis? What thesis? >.<
• Seriously though, i've got another two more tests to do and i can start typing my thesis out. I've got a thesis presentation in 3 weeks and a draft thesis due in 4 weeks. So why on earth am i going off to Canberra on Easter weekend? Pls refer to the fourth point above.
• Played soccer in a Mechanical Versus Mechatronics Society Shield (yes, seriously, they actually have such a thing which was started last year >.<). We lost 2-1. Darn... But it was still good fun though. :)
• The EPL is starting to heat up. I really hope Man Utd can overtake Chelsea's lead of 7 points. That will sure knock out some of Jose Mourinho's teeth and arrogance. :p

Oh yeah. A happy Easter weekend to all of you. Pls drink and drive responsibly. Its double demerit points over here. Lol... :D

Canberra, here we come!

Love is all around..

My oliphant sent me surprise gift! Yippee! She wrote a lovely poem to encourage my poor self and the surprise gift to cheer me on. My oliphant loves me! Hee... I is very the happy. :D

I was also told in the card that it needs a name.

0.o

Soft toys need a name, i understand. But bookmarks too? Hhmm... In any case, i have decided to name it Saru, or japanese for 'monkey'. There isn't a proper japanese name for 'gorilla', so the nearest would be 'monkey', i suppose. :p


Thank you so much, darling. *hugz* I will always love you and treasure you till the end of days. I love you. *muack!* Hee... :D

Decisions decisions decisions...

"A man makes his choices.
True, but what choices a man makes depends on what choices he is offered."
- "King of Foxes" by Raymond E. Feist

Decisions. Choices. Options.

They are always there in life: whether we want them or not, whether we notice them or not, whether we need them or not. Decisions can alter our life. Choices can change our path. Options can redo our fate. Sometimes its an easy one, "Where do we go for dinner?" Sometimes its a difficult one, "Shall i turn up for the outing with my colleagues?". And others... Well, others are life-changing decisions, which are sometimes made on the spur of the moment, "Shall i apply for a position in this company?" "Will you be my girlfriend?" "Shall I apply for a degree?"

"Its an Ogre Choice that you give us: die fast or die slow."
- From some book, i can't exactly remember. :p

There are times when an alternative exist, but we didn't see it. As the chinese saying goes, "Pang Guan Zhe Zhui Qing" - the by-stander always has the clearest view. There are times when we get too involved in a situation, too caught up in its process and forget our aims, our focus and our goals.

So what then is the right choice? Is there ever a correct decision? What is a good option? Only we know ourselves, the answers to these questions. What we choose is ultimately up to us. No one can force a decision on someone else. This is our life. Once we have chosen however, we alone face whatever consequences of the choice we have made. The responsiblity of the decision is on you, yourself and only you.

So can one do under such circumstances?

We choose.

And we hope we have chosen wisely, for sometimes its the smallest decisions that can change our lives forever...

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"So. Are you really going back to Singapore? Is there really nothing that can happen which will make you stay? Like maybe a company offers you a job?"
"Hhhmmm... Actually, if by some stroke of miracle or luck, a company offers me a job, i will seriously consider staying here."
"Ah ha! So if a company does offer you a job, you will seriously consider staying?"
"Erm... yeah."
"K k. I shall go see if i have any contacts that can offer you a job then. Hhhmm... Mechanical Engineer, right? Think i need to go make a few friends."
"But if you have those friends, you won't need me to stay here. You have them already. And i think its a pretty far-out measure to get me to stay, no?"
"Yarh. My friends say the same thing to me when i tell them i might be going home to find a job. And when i tell them its a pretty far-out measure, they say it isn't. So now i'm telling you it isn't a far-out measure. Anyway, if you stay, she can come over and play with me. Hee... "

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Although it was a light-hearted banter, it felt nice to be wanted for your friendship and company. I'm not sure if you will read this, but i really appreciate it. All i can offer as thanks are my poor company, inane bantering and my irritating laughing-at-you-teasing. I'm glad to have you as a good friend. Thank you so much. :)