Sunday, August 17, 2008

There’s no problem so awful that you can’t add some guilt to it and make it even worse.

“Does anything feel worse than being angry with people you love?”
After a bit, he spoke. “Watching someone you love die. And being angry, but not knowing where to direct it. I think that’s worse.”

- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

Please believe me when i say i'm sorry.

Please believe me when i say i love you.

I cannot force you to listen to me. I cannot force you to do what i say. You have no obligations to listen to me. You have no right to do what i say. If you do listen to me, then this is what i have to say:

Do not do silly things like over-dosing yourself. There are people out there who still need you and care for you. Do not let them down. Go to work everyday, even though your heart is bleeding from the wounds that i've inflicted on you. You need to surround yourself with people. If you're alone, then you will tend to do silly things.

“Dragonman, Dragonman,
Between thee and thine,
Share me that glimpse of love
Greater than mine.”
- “Dragonsong” by Anne McCaffrey

I have been very happy for the past six weeks. You have made me very happy, showering me with your love and care. I do not like doing this. Why should i enjoy walking away from something that makes me happy?

I'm sorry for hurting you like this. I'm sorry for making you unhappy. I'm sorry for leaving you. I know my apologies mean nothing to you, but i have never lied to you and every single apology comes from my heart.

Its over.

I'm sorry.

“There was nothing to say and that was what we said.”
- “Fool’s Fate” by Robin Hobb