Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sunday, October 25, 2009

His motto is “give before it hurts”.


If there is one word in which i would use to describe my life, it would be:

Control

When i was young, my parents controlled my life's every moment. And i don't begrudge them for that. We are all young and foolish in the early stages of our lives, and we need someone to control us, to discipline us.

And now, it seems that i try and control every aspect of my own life.

I try and control my emotions. When a friend or colleague says something which i disagree, i control myself from yelling at them. Well. I try. But sometimes i'm unsuccessful.

I try and control my body. Even though my legs haven't fully recovered from a run, i go jogging again the day after. I try and eat vegetarian food once a day, because i want to control my weight.

I try and control risks. As a engineer, i have to consider various factors in order for my component/assembly to work. If i can't mitigate them, i restrict them. So far, there hasn't been anything i can't control.

I try and control odds. Socially, there are always games to gamble. I don't like games where i can't control my odds of winning. Therefore, i only play mahjong, Big 2 and Blackjack. In such games, you can control your own cards and hence, control your odds of winning. And if you're skillful enough, you can even control your opponent's cards as well.

So far, control has serve me well. Or rather, it has become subconsciously embedded into my life, such that i don't even notice that i'm doing it.

But because i try and control every aspect of my life, i have become something even worse:
I have become boring.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Then again, if I’m not a wimp, why am I taking the path of least resistance?



"Breathe"

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me.

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.

Ohhh

I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

Saturday, October 10, 2009

When you’re serious about having fun, its not much fun at all!

When you buy something expensive, it is obviously valuable. Therefore, it makes complete sense that you treasure it and want to protect it somehow.

So if you bought a $120 scarf, its obviously expensive. Because, honestly, how much can scarfs cost?

So. If you had bought such a scarf, it must be treated with care.

Before you take it out, washing of hands is a must. Moreover, you must wash your hands according to the 8 simple steps as recommended by our dear and caring gah men. And no ordinary soap will do. No no, it has to be Dettol. That way, you can ensure that you get rid of all the bacteria which will infect your $120 scarf.



After washing your hands with Dettol, you need to put on your surgical gloves and face mask. Even though you've washed your hands, there is still no guarantee of the absence of germs. And you think your breath is healthy enough for your $120 scarf? No. Just no. Besides, some passer-by might sneeze and ruin your $120 scarf. So, to be safe, surgical gloves and face mask are a must.


Once you have done all that necessary preparations, you can proceed to take out your $120 scarf. Obviously, with it being so expensive, it needs to be in a hermetically-and-liquid-nitrogen sealed container. That way, you can ensure the freshness and mint condition of your $120 scarf.

And to prevent any jealous passer-by from stealing your $120 scarf, you will need to punch in the ten-digit code onto the container's number pad. No precaution is too light for your $120 scarf.

Once you've gained access, much to the amazement of people around you, you can now put on your $120 scarf. Now, i know you've washed your hands and put on the surgical gloves. But you can't be too safe, can you? So you need to use tweezers to extract your $120 scarf. Use a pair, if necessary. They have to be blunt, obviously. Otherwise, the sharp points might pierce into the 100% wool fabric and ruin it.

Once you've used the tweezers to maneuver your $120 scarf in place, you can now bask in the glory and admiration of the people around you.

Be happy and satisfied that you've taken every single reasonable step to protect your $120 scarf.

Monday, October 05, 2009

The longer you wait for the mail, the less there is in it.



"Fallin' For You"

I don't know but...
I think I maybe
fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
keep this to myself

Waiting 'til I..
know you better
I am trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling..
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my..time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
and now i found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm falling for you...
I'm falling for you...

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
and we start to dance

All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's juusst
you and me

I'm trying..
Not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding..
what I'm feeeling...
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my.. time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think i'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
And now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

Ooh, I just can't take it..
My heart is racing..
Emotions keep spinning out...

I've been spending all my.. time
just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my..life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think i'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

Ooohhh
Ooh no no
Oooooohhhhh

Oooh, I'm falling' for ya

Sunday, October 04, 2009

I’ll bet my autopsy reveals my mouth is too big.

"A place where he belongs...

Where... I belong...

The kids from the village are afraid of me.

I haven't really done anything to them, but everyone's afraid of me.

Is it because of my silver hair? Because of my turquoise eyes?

Or... because of my cold personality?"

- Tenth Squad Captain, Hitsugaya Toushirou in Bleach Episode 239: The Awakening Hyōrinmaru! Hitsugaya's Fierce Fight.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

There are just four simple machines to alter force: the lever, the pulley, the incline plane and, um, the internal combustion engine.

Somehow, from a standing position, the new Ferrari 458 doesn't look nice. The gaping "mouth" in the front is big enough to swallow me!

But looking from a low position, the "mouth" doesn't look that big. So it actually looks very good.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

I’m losing the game, but winning an ambulatory adulthood.

如果前几个星期,你觉得我太烦,我现在真实的跟你道歉。

我太无知了:我以为你这位美女会喜欢我这位小丑。

我应该知道我的身份:我又肥又丑。没有女人会喜欢我的。

谢谢你的时间。

我不会再找你,也不会再烦你了。

Saturday, September 12, 2009

I find my life is a lot easier the lower I keep everyone’s expectations.

Sometimes, even the message was sent, nothing happens.

Ah well. At least i tried.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Getting an inch of snow is like winning 10 cents in the lottery.



"Did You Get My Message?"

Did you get my message, the one I left
While I was trying to condense everything
That I meant in a minute or less when I called to confess
And make all of my stresses go bye-bye

Did you get my message, you did not guess
'cuz if you did you would have called me with your sweet intent
And we could give it a rest
'stead of beating my breast
Making all of the pressure go sky-high

Do you ever wonder what happens to the words that we send
Do they bend, do they break from the flight that they take
And come back together again with a whole new meaning
In a brand new sense, completely unrelated to the one I sent

Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, yeah, oooh oooh ooooh hooo

Uh oh, where did it go, must have bopped past your phone
And fallen right outta the window
[Rachel Yamagata:] ooh well, how can I tell?
Shoulda called the operator maybe she know the info
But whether or not my message you got was too much or a lot to reply
[Rachel Yamagata:] why not try this for a fact
Should you ever come back I'd relax and feel relieved
Before my panic attack

Ahh hooo oooh
Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, yeah oooh oooh ooooh hooo

Did you get my message, the one that I left
While I was trying to condense everything that I meant
[Rachel Yamagata:] Now the moment is passed
Not much sand in the glass and I'm standing to lose my mind
Do you ever wonder what happens to the words that we send
So they bend, do they break from the flight that they take
And come back together again with a whole new meaning
In a brand new sense, and please be sympathetic to the time I spent

Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, oooh oooh ooooh
Did you get my message, yeah oooh oooh ooooh hooo
Did you get my message
[Rachel Yamagata:] no I didn't hear a word you said
Did you get my message
[Rachel Yamagata:] no I'm not gonna believe your lies anymore
Did you get my message that I want to reconnect with you
Did you get my message
[Rachel Yamagata:] I can hear you say your coming but I don't hear
Why did you get the message love ?
That I want to get back with you
Did you get my message love
That I want to reconnect with you
Why did you get the message love ?
Did you get my message
[Rachel Yamagata and Mraz:] That I want to reconnect with you

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Ace pilot spaceman Ensui cruises low over the planet at high speed. I wonder what this “E” on the fuel gauge means.

Its quite discouraging and disheartening to hear that the project, which you've been sweated and bled for, is called a "Battlefield Taxi" by the media.

And its not only in newspapers. Its also on the internet and probably on the TV as well.

Sigh... -__-







Sunday, August 30, 2009

I go to school, but I never learn what I want to know.

"我的眼中只有你一个人." My heart cried out.

But my mouth froze and words died in my throat.

I don't know if i will succeed, but i will still try.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Our favourite games are the ones we don’t understand!



"If It Kills Me"

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Well you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

[Chorus:]
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

How long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

[Chorus]

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
Yeah, the feeling inside keeps building
I'll find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I wonder if you can refuse to inherit the world. I think if you’re born, it’s too late.

"This is the problem. If you do anything at all, you stand the chance, no matter how many precautions you take, of never being able to do anything again.

An accident is something which, by its very nature, cannot be prevented.

But no one has got that. Which means that everything now comes with a hand-rail and a luminous jacket and a hard hat and steel-toe-capped boots and a banksman and ear defenders and protective strips and beeps and bongs and warnings and notices and rules, and that means nothing is quite as much fun as it used to be when you could make a buggy from bits of old pram and see how fast it would go down a steep hill."

- Jeremy Clarkson in Top Gear Magazine UK Edition August 2009

Monday, August 10, 2009

The valiant spaceman ensui comes in over the mountains of a strange planet! Our hero desperately hopes to find a rest area with working facilities.

After you have been in a kampong or some remote place in Malaysia for even a day or two, you get a culture shock when you come back home.

The modern buildings. The transport infrastructure. The well-paved roads.

You can't help thinking to yourself: If we hadn't gain any independence and were still under Malaysia, our country would still be like those kampong areas.

And for that, we should all be grateful for what we have now.

Happy 44th Birthday, Singapore.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

I can’t imagine mastering the skills involved here without a clearer understanding of who’s going to be impressed.

Why are people trying to foist me on some poor girl?

Look. I'm fugly and a loser. And to top it all off, i'm an engineer.

So not only am i as boring as hell, i am also absolutely rubbish with girls. I say and do all the wrong things.

So. Please. Spare a thought for the female gender of the world. Do not bring them a fate that is worse than death.




"Geek In The Pink"

[Record scratching sounds]
[Rapper] Yo, brother A to Z
[Mraz] Yo, whassup B?
[Rapper] Yo, what time is it?
[Mraz] Haha it's laundry day

Well, let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat fulla rhymes
Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Well, isn't it delicious, crazy way that I'm kissin'
'Cause baby listen to this, don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what she might think about me
You can vibe without me if you want
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Like the geek in the pink, pink, pink
The geek in the pink, yeah

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
At least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and
She was starin' through the doorframe
Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if she wants
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Hey baby look at me go
From zero to hero
You better take it from a geek like me
I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
Who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

So what I've got a short attention span
A coke in my hand
Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
My hip hop and flip-flops it don't stop with the light rock
A shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm
Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own
So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
That on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you/her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out/on
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Well, I'm the geek in the pink, yo pink pink
Geek is the color for fall, I'm the geek in the pink yeah
So I'm the geek yo, in the pink yo.
Hahah, y'all geek is the new color for fall
I'm the geek in the pink

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Nothing spoils fun like finding out it builds character.



"Life is an onslaught of difficult problems.

And the ones who find the correct answers get to survive.

In which case, i think everyone wants to get as many right as they can."
- King Barragan's Fraccion, Arrancar Findor Carias in Bleach Episode 219: Hisagi's Shikai! The Name is...

There are times when life presents you with the opportunity. Its up to you to either grasp it with both hands, or to ignore it.

I prefer to seize any chance to make my life more interesting.

“The trickster, the riddler, the keeper of balance, he of the many faces who finds life in death and who fears no evil; he who walks through doors”
- “Brisinger” by Christopher Paolini

Saturday, July 11, 2009

This is Ensui, your flight captain speaking. Just to reassure you that, yes, there is someone up front.



“A man from The Tape Gallery told me the other day that a car can never be art.

Because for something to be art, it can have no purpose other than itself: No function.”

- Jeremy Clarkson in "Top Gear" Season 11 Episode 4

Sunday, July 05, 2009

A dazed Spaceman Ensui crawls from the smoking wreckage of his ship! Our hero now regrets not buying a towing rider on his insurance policy.



"New Divide"

I remembered black skies
The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect this space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss in every lie
In every truth that you deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake to great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect this space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide

Sunday, June 28, 2009

In tribute to the King of Pop.



"Black Or White"

I Took My Baby
On A Saturday Bang
Boy Is That Girl With You
Yes We're One And The Same

Now I Believe In Miracles
And A Miracle
Has Happened Tonight

But, If
You're Thinkin'
About My Baby
It Don't Matter If You're
Black Or White

They Print My Message
In The Saturday Sun
I Had To Tell Them
I Ain't Second To None

And I Told About Equality
An It's True
Either You're Wrong
Or You're Right

But, If
You're Thinkin'
About My Baby
It Don't Matter If You're
Black Or White

I Am Tired Of This Devil
I Am Tired Of This Stuff
I Am Tired Of This Business
Sew When The
Going Gets Rough
I Ain't Scared Of
Your Brother
I Ain't Scared Of No Sheets
I Ain't Scare Of Nobody
Girl When The
Goin' Gets Mean

[L. T. B. Rap Performance]
Protection
For Gangs, Clubs
And Nations
Causing Grief In
Human Relations
It's A Turf War
On A Global Scale
I'd Rather Hear Both Sides
Of The Tale
See, It's Not About Races
Just Places
Faces
Where Your Blood
Comes From
Is Where Your Space Is
I've Seen The Bright
Get Duller
I'm Not Going To Spend
My Life Being A Color

[Michael]
Don't Tell Me You Agree With Me
When I Saw You Kicking Dirt In My Eye

But, If
You're Thinkin' About My Baby
It Don't Matter If You're Black Or White

I Said If
You're Thinkin' Of
Being My Baby
It Don't Matter If You're Black Or White

I Said If
You're Thinkin' Of
Being My Brother
It Don't Matter If You're
Black Or White

Ooh, Ooh
Yea, Yea, Yea Now
Ooh, Ooh
Yea, Yea, Yea Now

It's Black, It's White
It's Tough For You
To Get By
It's Black , It's White, Whoo

It's Black, It's White
It's Tough For You
To Get By
It's Black , It's White, Whoo