Random Rumblings, Ravings and Rantings...

Rumblings:
Went to sit in for another meeting today. It is a relatively simple project, which had already started sometime ago. My colleague, who is gonna quit at the end of the month (i'm suspecting i'm replacing her >.<), had already done most of the work for me. Hence, there was little for me to do but listen and take notes when she told me of our responsibilities in the project.

Along the way to the site (which was in Tuas >.<) and back to the office, we chatted and she tried to allay my fears of screwing things up and gave a few pointers on the job scope (my friend had told me recently that during school days, if we get something wrong, marks got deducted, now if we get something wrong, it will be far far worse >.<).

I was also informed that the calculation of air-conditioning was a simple formula. (-.-)

In my last university session, my lecturer had given us an assignment to calculate the power of the air-conditioning in a section of the university library. Me and my friends spent ALOT of time and effort pouring over the long list of the various formulas and steps taken. And to think that the company actually reduced it all down to ONE single formula.

Thats really depressing. (-.-)

Rantings:
When i was serving my national service, i wanted to enter a combat unit coz i felt i could learn more (but it required me to stay-in and only book out on weekends >.<). My original posting was a base unit, which allowed me to book out everyday. When one of my friends offered to swap his posting with me, i jumped at the chance. Many of my friends thought i was crazy but till now, i don't regret my decision.

Yes, i'm still crazy. (-.-)

The reason why i'm bringing this up is this: When i was at the base unit temporarily, i found that the daily booking out caused me to be scatter-brained and start thinking of stupid things (like being paranoid and far-fetched stuff >.<). However, when i was in the combat unit, i was surrounded by my friends and things to do. Their constant company kept me sane and life was simple, if not monotonous and mundane. i became more focused and didn't think of stupid things coz i had constant company.

Right now, i wished i could do the same. When i head home after work these days, i start to think of stupid things again. Stuff like 'what if' and remembering our three years of love.

Yes, its really depressing too. (-.-)

Rantings:
In secondary school, i had an interesting chat with my friend. He wondered if in the future, one would be able to purchase 'time' like a commodity. I had refuted that notion coz 'bad' people would be able to use it to further their evil designs. My friend retorted that the police would be able to purchase 'time' as well to stop the 'bad' people. That statement certaintly shut me up. (-.-)

The reason for such stupid thoughts (see? I told i'm thinking stupid stuff these days >.<) is coz i saw a article on the web that the american police are starting to collect the DNA from everyone. The person who raised the issue up, was undoubtedly an american, for he was outraged by it.

Personally, i'm not bothered by it. I mean, our police force has a collection of every citizen's fingerprints. In my opinion, thats no different to having your DNA taken. If you're not gonna commit a crime, why should you be afraid? Some might say that its our right to refuse, but if it helps the police track down the criminal, why should we refuse?

Back to main point of how this article made me remember my secondary school days conversation.

If the police were to have a collection of everyone's DNA, would it really help? I'm sure in the future, criminals would be able to wipe off all signs of their DNA at the crime scene. I won't be surprised if such a notion has already happened. If it is possible to change your DNA even slightly, that would simply render the collection of DNA as good as the collection of fingerprints: it would help, but probably not as much as it should be.

Yes, thats the third depressing point. (-.-)

*pensive sigh*

Herein ends the explanation of some random, depressing bits in my rather mundane life.

Days of sheer unmitigated blah

Apologies.

I know i'm suppose to concentrate on my new job, post stuff on how irritating my job/colleagues are, and to get over my break-up. If so, you might wanna skip reading this post. If not, read on at your own risk.

“Don’t leave me alone
The cry in the night
Of anguish heart-striking
Of soul-killing fright.
Live for my living
Or else I must die
Don’t leave me alone.
A world heard that cry.”
- “Dragonsinger: Harper of Pern” by Anne McCaffrey

“I walked fast because I wanted to be exhausted by nightfall. I made sure that I was too tired to dream. The only trouble with that plan lay in the fact that everything in the Vale aroused memories of Poledra. Have you any idea how many snowy owls there are in this world?”
- “Belgarath The Sorcerer” by David and Leigh Eddings

“‘The tears I feel today
I’ll wait to shed tomorrow
Though I’ll not sleep this night
Nor find surcease from sorrow.
My eyes must keep their sight:
I dare not be tear blinded.
I must be free to talk
Not choked with grief, clear minded.
My mouth cannot betray
The anguish that I know.
Yes, I’ll keep my tears till later:
But my grief will never go.’
- Menolly’s ‘Song for Petiron’”
- “Dragonsinger: Harper of Pern” by Anne McCaffrey

“Juggling comes naturally to everyone. We juggle our friends, keeping one in the air while we squeeze attention from another. We juggle our work with pleasure, our needs with our shame, and even our love with our hate. Everyone juggles, all of us trying to keep as many balls in the air as possible, trying to grab at each opportunity before it comes crashing down at our feet.”
- “Tanis: The Shadow Years” by Barbara Siegel and Scott Siegel


On MSN...

adam said: Got your sights on a new woman yet? Get back on the horse if ya fall off cowboy

Jason: trying to occupy myself said: Nah. I dunnoe if i can find another girl like her and if i WANT to find someone like her.


Yesterday with friends...

Friend: Try and find another one lor.

Me: Its not as easy as it sounds. We’ve been together for long. You just can’t say find another one, means find another one lor.


The above quotes from books and conversation with friends describes my feelings at the moment. With my new job at the moment, it does help keep my mind off things. But there are so many things that remind me of us when we were together.

There is only so much that a job can help keep one's mind off, i suppose. *melancholy sigh*

Sign on the expressway: Why do you do this everyday?

You know Singapore is really really small when your australian university classmate applied for the same job as you.

I neglected to post earlier that my classmate had applied for the same job and was scheduled to have an interview at the same time as me. Because i was early, during my interview, the boss had actually asked me if i knew him and asked if i could work with him.

This friend was the same one whom i had whing-ed about having bad referencing techniques in my earlier post. (-.-)

In order not to be rude and start slamming him, i simply said "we have different working styles" (i'm sorry, but i just couldn't bring myself to say that he's absolute rubbish and that he shouldn't be hired at all >.<).

His grades weren't as good as mine and he graduated without any honours. While the boss had offered me the job immediately, he didn't do so for my friend. He told my friend that he'll interview one more person before deciding.

On one hand, for obvious reasons, i wasn't really looking forward to working with him. On the other hand, at least i would see a friendly face when i come to work for the first few weeks.

In the end, he did get the job. And by some weird coincidence, we both wore a long-sleeve shirt with almost the same shade of blue on the first day of work. What a great start to my new job. (-.-)

Yesterday on the first day of work, during orientation...

Colleague: This is Mr XXX. These are the new engineers, Jason and Daniel.

Mr XXX: Hello. *shake hands* Wah. You two wear the same shirt ah?

Me: *mutters* Yeah. Come from the same university mah.

In the boss's office,

Boss: Daniel ah. Here are some simple projects for you to look through. *hands over two projects* They are very simple. Too simple, in fact. Jason ah. I give you something more complicated. *hands over one of the projects*

Me: 0.o *thinking: oohh ffarrkk*

Today at the office, after i returned from the toilet,

Daniel: Eh. Just now boss came by and said that he wants you to come along to one of his meetings to understudy him. He's gonna leave now, i think.

Me: Heh? You leh? You not coming ah?

Daniel: No leh. *shakes head*


Apparently, my boss had high expectations of me. I really hope i can fufill his expectations and not disappoint him. Haiz... (>.<)

P.S: Oh yeah, i forgot to explain what my job entails. Basically, we help large buildings to design and coordinate their water, electricity, sanitary, fire protection and HVAC (Heating, Ventilation and Air-Conditioning) systems. It is more of a project management role coz we'll liason with the cilent, architect, structural engineer, as well as the Singapore Power, Singapore Telcom and other various government services.