I try to make everyone’s day a little more surreal.

“‘No. I don’t want ever to go through this kind of pain again. I don’t want ever to leave myself open to this much hurt. I was wrong ever to let myself fall in love with him in the first place.’

Kahlan shook her head again.

‘I don’t want him to come back.’”

- “Temple of the Winds” by Terry GoodKind

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“‘Not Richard. I’ll not trust my heart to him again. Regardless of what I did, that doesn’t make it right for him to hurt me as he did. He just walked away from me, and after he’d made promises of always loving me no matter what. He failed me in that test.’

'I never thought he would hurt me like that. i thought my heart was safe with him, no matter what, but it wasn't'”

- “Temple of the Winds” by Terry GoodKind

There’s an inverse relationship between how good something is for you, and how much fun it is.

"He saw a chance, a vague and misty path through the fog, so dangerous that the mere thought of it stopped his breath. But he'd already started along that path - he'd been pushing through it blindly, picking his way among the pits and mires - and now the sun had risen within him, and the fog had begun to burn away.

He saw that he was already doing it right: he was already on a path that led to everything, if he only had the guts to risk it all. The slightest hesitation, the vaguest stirrings of fear, and he'd be lost. The demons that patrolled this path would close in and rend him at the first hint of uncertainty, but he didn't mind that at all."
- "Heroes Die" by Matthew Woodring Stover

As it turns out, the second path does exist. After three applications, i finally managed to get onto it.

My parents are happy. I should be happy.

But i'm not. Why?

Perhaps its because i'm out of my comfort zone. Perhaps its because i'm so damn tired of re-applying to that position and company. Perhaps its because i'm suddenly not sure if thats what i actually want. Perhaps its because i'm worried that the talentless me will fail spectacularly.

Apprehensive. Worried. Nervous. Whatever it is, "happy" is definitely not my mood now.

Update: 19/10/08
I almost forgot. Happy Birthday to my three-year-old blog. It has been through with me:

• Two relationships,
• My first real job in the rat race,
• I'm about to commence my second job,
• Loads of nonsensical rantings from me,
• Loads of grief, and
  
• Loads of happiness

So far, it has been going well for this blog. I don't think i'll be quitting this any time soon. :)

See if we can sell Mom and Dad into slavery for a star cruiser.

Now, in relation to my old post on time-travelling, i seemed to have stumbled upon a real life black hole.

Yes, my friends. A real life black hole. And i am not joking.

If you have ever been to the toilets on the first storey of The Cathay Building, you'll know what i'm on about.

The first time you try finding your way to the said toilets, you will have to go through a door first. This door is very important. I shall touch on it later. Now, along the long passageway, there are decorative circles of different sizes on the walls. I suspect they were placed there to distract you from the long journey. Not me though. I think those circles are actually planets of the solar system. I think there was one that suspiciously looked like the moons of Jupiter.

But no matter, we shall press on. And then when you pass the door that leads to the carpark, you really start to think: Is this journey ever going to end? And bear in mind, your bladder is going to burst under the continuing strain of containment throughout the entire space journey. But we didn't win the world wars by giving up, did we? No. The human spirit shall prevail. And indeed, you finally reached your destination. The sighs of relief probably could be heard throughout the entire solar system in which you just travelled through.

And then, you start on the long journey back. Now that your bladder has been relieved of its burden, you feel much better and start to take notice of the scenery. That extra small circle looks like Pluto. And those little dots there look like the asteriod belt. Hhhmm.... Oh, yes. We have passed the door that leads to the carpark.

And when you finally reach the last door, the minute you step out and back into The Cathay Building, you find that you have aged ten years. You start to look around blearly and your feet are shaking with fatigue after that long journey. Your friends probably look at you in horror, exclaiming about how different you look and why did you take so damn long.

Now. Back to that important door. I really do think they have somehow managed to capture a black hole and shove it indiscreetly into that doorway. So when you step in and out of that door, you won't notice it. The only evidence that the black hole is there, is the signs of aging when you come out through that door.

And you know the worst thing? Us guys aged ten years when we come out of that door.

The girls? I think they aged thirty years when they come out of that door.

I’ve got plenty of common sense. I just choose to ignore it.

I have been found lacking in work. And to be honest, i really don't have an explanation for my mistakes.

Thus far, whenever a problem arises, i instinctively know what to do and have an inkling of a solution in mind. This time my instincts deserted me, and all avenues of escape were closed. No matter how hard i tried, there doesn't seem to be solution for it. I just stood there helpless, mind panicking and not knowing what to do.

Even my boss told me, "Eh. This is not your usual standards. What's wrong with you? Too busy?"

I just kept quiet. Simply because i don't have a good explanation for my mistakes.

But whatever the case, the worst of it is over. I really need to do this properly now. Professionally and correctly.

The captain has turned off the seat belt sign. Thank you for choosing Ensui’s Flight 240 non-stop to Stoney Gulch.

Here are a couple of photos from the Singapore Motorshow 2008.

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"Mark: Its pretty impressive that you've got the car in here today as well. Thats good.
Jeremy: I don't think its a real one. I think its one of those fake ones that businessmen buy to put in their offices when you're finished with it, isn't it?
Mark: I think you're right. Yeah.
Jeremy: Yeah, I don't think you'll win... Mind you, probably faster than your one this year.
Mark: Oei..."
- Jeremy Clarkson and Mark Webber in "Top Gear" Season 6 Episode 10

"They design all this. Everything on it is all fluid and they go and put this vertical windscreen on.
Thats whats slowing you down, mate. Seriously."
- Jeremy Clarkson interviewing Jenson Button in "Top Gear" Season 8 Episode 8

This is an amphibious car by RinSpeed. According to the video at the exhibition, it can actually travel underwater. It has an electric motor, so it doesn't really go all that fast. :p

"Its hard to say how much power the GTR develops, because each engine - as i said last week - is hand-built, and each one is therefore a little bit different.
But i think they put a million horsepower in this one because the acceleration is just... blistering!
Its just... savage! God, its face-ripping!
With the launch control engaged, I did 0-60 (mph) in 3.5 seconds, and flat out, its even more impressive."
- Jeremy Clarkson in "Top Gear" Season 11 Episode 5

"With a 0-60 (mph) time of 4.3 seconds and a top speed of 192 (mph), the Gallardo blitz the Porsche and the Aston. And with a 100 breakhorse power more than you get in a Ferrari 360, it nukes that too."
- Jeremy Clarkson in "Top Gear" Season 3 Episode 4

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All in all, its disappointing to say the least. Mostly because there aren't any european cars in it. Cars like Ferrari, Lamborghini, Audi and Volkswagon were all absent.

And because of that, the motor girls were all posing alongside with unglamorous family saloons and seven-seaters.

And the worse bit?

You have to pay for admission. (-.-)