"Hard work never killed anybody, but why take a chance?" - Edgar Bergen

“It’s revolving.
Revolving…
If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.
We’re helpless.
All we want is power.
Even if we can’t protect others by extending our hands, we desire a blade for those hands to grasp.”
- Ichigo in Bleach Episode 109: “Ichigo and Rukia, Thoughts Revolving Around Heaven”

Daikin, the air-conditioning supplier, hosted a Chinese New Year party on Monday at VivoCity. Naturally, my boss was invited. But he had another dinner to go to on the same day, along with our other directors. So Daniel and I went on their behalf.

We were hoping to get to know some of the developers so that they would hire us for future projects. Unfortunately, most of the crowd were senior management and everyone knew everyone. Daniel and I were lost and only made small talk to the people beside us. In the end, we only got to know our competitors / peers, depending on your point of view. :p

Ah well. At least we had a good time. :)

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My boss has scheduled Daniel and I to take an ISO course. Daniel is to go in March, while mine is in April. The reason why we always take different dates, is because of the lack of staff.

If both of us were to go at the same time and should something cropped up in both our projects, my boss would be very very short-handed. >.<

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Somehow, i feel that i'm moving forwards in this job. It has been, what, six months since i got this job and i've never stopped learning. The Daikin party was an eye-opener to how the industry ran and now, i'm up for an ISO course so that i can become an ISO auditor (although i fail to see how a two-day course can miraculously make me an ISO auditor >.<).

So far so good then.

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While talking to an electrical contractor on the phone, he asked where i had worked before. I get this question all the time. People seem to assume that i'm experienced. -.-

Naturally, i answered that i'm a fresh graduate. His reply, unlike the normal reply i get which is: Oh, so you're a fresh grad, was, "Wah. You're a fresh grad ah? But you talk like you have a lot of experience."

I'm not sure if that was a compliment, or a hint to me that i should know my place. -.-

Ah well, what the heck. I'm just doing my job.

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Chinese New Year is just a couple of hours away. Our company received about 11 hampers and yesterday, we took turns to draw lots and see who were the lucky ones. I was the first to draw and got a hamper, albeit one that had lots of wine bottles (a grand total of six bottles in one hamper >.<). Hopefully, its a sign of good fortune to come. :)

While waiting for transport back home (i couldn't possibly take a bus or train home while carrying the hamper >.<), i read the various CNY cards on display at our reception counter. One of them came from a contractor whom i worked with on one of our projects, and the card was addressed to: Mr William Ng and Mr Jason.

I had thought festive cards would usually be addressed to my boss only. But it appears that i've made sufficient impression, so much so that the contractor remembers me. Happy me. :)

May everyone have a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year.

“The wind lifted her thick hair just as I used to and slid its hand along the curve of her warm neck and jaw. Her eyes went suddenly wide. Then tears brimmed them.
“No,” she said aloud. “No. I won’t think of you anymore. No.””
- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

"If we could not forget, we would never be free from grief." - Bahya Ibn Paquda

““It is what I feel for him. He must be first in my life. He needs that from me. Understand this. It is not that I no longer care for you. It is that I cannot put that feeling ahead of what is best for him.” She went down two more steps.
“Goodbye, Newboy.” She no more than breathed those final words, but they sank into my heart as if branded there.”
- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

You left me.

You have found another.

Although i nearly went mad with grief,

Although my heart still yearns for you,

Although i am trying my best to forget you,

Although i miss you badly,

Although i want to hate you but i can't,

““What can I give you, what can I tell you to make you understand what you are to me? I can’t just let you go!”
“No more can you make me stay,” she pointed out in a low voice. I felt something go out of her. Some anger, some spirit, some will. I have no word for it.
“Please,” she said, and the word hurt me, because she begged. “Just let me go. Don’t make it hard. Don’t make me cry.””
- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

Although i want you back,

Although i still think of you constantly,

Although i still love you,

I wish you all the best.

I hope you'll be happier with him than you were with me.

I hope you live a happy life.

“I do not know what I looked like, only that she looked aside as if she could not bear it.”
- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

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Happy Valentine's Day, everyone.

"A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking." - Harold Fricklestein

When you have worked in the office till 10pm for two consecutive days to rush for something, you know that either/both of the below is true:

1. That work has taken over your life and your social life is in the pits.
2. That whoever gave you that last-minute job is a farking inconsiderate and unreasonable bastard/bitch*
   

* - Delete where applicable

I'm so worn out that i seriously think that someone can just sweep my remains off the floor and dump them into the trash. (-.-)

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Updated: 9 February 2007
I would like to revise my statement from "...worked in the office till 10pm for two consecutive days..." to "worked in the office till 10pm for two consecutive days, and then till 11.40pm on the third day..."

Honestly, this is really ridiculous. I only reached home after midnight, sharing a cab with my colleague. Good thing i don't have to work this weekend so i can rest up somewhat. :p

The Day Electricity Died On Me...

“Who wills,
Can.
Who tries,
Does.
Who loves,
Lives.”
- “Dragonsong” by Anne McCaffrey


Yesterday morning, i woke up to find:

The battery on my watch had died...

The battery on my handphone had died...

The battery on my MP3 Player had died...

... ...

(-.-)

What is this?! Is this the End-Of-The-World?! Is this the dreaded Horseman Of Apocalypse which heralds the death of electricity and hence, the world?! *hollers, "Run for your lives! Electricity has died! Its the END!"*

Fortunately, the MRT and computers still work. Now, please excuse me. I need to go fill up my devices with some electricity. :D

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Today begins my War-On-Flab.

For too long, i have let Laziness, Lethargy and Inactive rule me. For too long, i have suffered their cruel ministrations and mockery. For too long, i have been chained by their power and mastery.

But now, the line is drawn.

I will suffer no longer! I will not sit by and let them ruin my life! I will not let the Flab overtake my body! I WILL fight for my freedom! I WILL fight for my health! I WILL fight for my fitness!

Today is the day! The day i fight with the might of Jogging and the prowess of Determination! This day shall be known as Flab-Fighting-Day!

And so, the war has began... :D

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Yes, i know i don't sound quite sane.

Then again, who is? :D

“Revolving…
If fate is a wheel, we are the cogs that drive it.
We have no choice, but to believe that this wheel is flawless and forge on ahead.
The power of the individual cogs and their destination…
… And the blade that is brought down upon them”
- Rukia in Bleach Episode 109: "Ichigo and Rukia, Thoughts Revolving Around Heaven"

The majority of work in this thesis is original. However, some assistance with material and research has been provided by my fellow Gong-ers: Part 1

It has been a great week, catching up with friends and chatting. However, our chatting wasn't on any ordinary mundane topic.

Oh no.

Our discussions were most profound. In fact, in our infinite wisdom as graduates from the University of Wollongong, we have come up with a number of theories that will one day change the entire world.

Theory One:
If you swirl your saliva in your mouth fast enough, you can make ice. Whats more, the ice that you produce will be rectangular, due to the shape of your mouth.
Furthermore, people with dimples can make ice faster because the dimples are like valleys and therefore the shape of the mouth will become like an hourglass shape. 0.o

Theory Two:
What is a shape of a ball?
If your answer is round/circular, you're wrong. The answer is a sphere. Most people will say its round/circular because we have been screwed up by our country's education, and therefore lack creativity to think out of the box, and hence can only look at a ball in a two-dimensional way. We must learn how to view things in a three-dimensional way.
Whats more, if you trace the outline of a circle in the air, its perpendicular to the floor. But if you flip the outline so that its parallel to the floor, it becomes a sphere. 0.0

Theory Three:
If any word has a double 'L' in it, it usually relates to a circular shape. Examples are the words 'roll' and 'ball'.
Wait. Hang on. A 'Wall' is not always circular. Neither is a 'Doll'. Dang. Blast. -.-

Theory Four:
Godzilla cannot be asexual, despite what was said in the movie, because it kidnapped the woman. In fact, the woman is used as a baton to tag turns between King Kong and Godzilla. o.o

Theory Five:
In some coffeeshops, Milo is also known as 'Ta-Kiu' (Hokkien for kick-ball >.<) because the can of Milo always shows soccer players kicking a ball. Lipton Tea is known as 'Diao-Hu' (Hokkien for fishing >.<) because you dip the Lipton tea bag in and out of your cup, like someone fishing.
So, 'Ta-Kiu Zero' will mean that the drinks stall will freeze the Milo for you, because the 'Zero' stands for the temperature i.e. zero degrees Celsius. And 'Ta-Kiu-cino' will mean that the drinks stall will add more milk. 0.0

Theory Six:
The drinks stall in coffeeshops get their ice in two possible ways.
The first way is to get ice from the dessert stall. The dessert stall uses a machine to shave ice for their dishes, and there will be eventually be a small piece of ice left which cannot be shaved. This piece of ice will be given to the drinks stall to serve to their customers. Unfortunately, because the ice is so small, you will need approximately ten or so of those said ice pieces to put in a drink.
Therefore, you can only have your drink with ice if the dessert stall has sold more than ten ice kachangs. 0.o
The second way is that some guy from the drinks stall will rock up with a huge block of ice in one hand and an icepick in another hand. Then, much like a prim and proper waiter in an italian restaurant with a pepper grinder, he will ask if you want ice in your drink. If you say yes, he will then proceed to chop and hack on the huge ice block with the icepick until you say 'when'.
In fact, there are some guys who are so skillful that they can hack and chop the ice block into a tiny ice sculpture (like Mickey Mouse or Donald Duck) to put in your drink. o.0

Theory Seven:
In some countries, there are formation of rain clouds but rain never comes. The solution to this is to fly a plane into those rain clouds and spray some salt into the clouds. This will allow the water molecules to cling onto the salt, and therefore fall as rain.
Hence, if you toss hay into those same rain clouds, the water molecules will then cling onto those strands of hay and then float to the ground in a swaying fashion, much like how a feather floats to the ground when thrown in the air.
Won't that be an incredible sight, having rain floating to the ground in a swaying fashion. o.o

If you feel lost and don't understand the above seven theories, dun feel alone.

We really are rubbish. -.-

"The important thing is not to stop questioning." - Albert Einstein

"Molly, please, just talk to me. I thought, the last time we spoke, that we understood each other. Now you don't speak to me, you turn away... I don't know what changed, I don't understand what is happening between us."
- “Royal Assassin” by Robin Hobb

Do you know how sometimes you feel so confused?

Do you know how sometimes your heart tells you to do something, but your brain doesn't want to?

Do you know how sometimes your instinct screams for you to do something - anything! - to prevent hurt and sadness? But your cold sense of logic tells you bluntly that its none of your business so why should you care?

Do you know how sometimes you wish that things wouldn't have happened this way and that if you could travel to the past, would you try and do things differently? But then again, due to the time paradox proposed by Albert Einstein, you could never change the past no matter how hard you tried, but thats another entirely different matter...

Do you know how sometimes you wish you were a robot, and then you wouldn't need to be troubled by such pesky and frustrating things called Emotions and Feelings?

Do you know how sometimes you desperately want someone to tell you how to think, what to do and how to react?

Do you know how sometimes you just want to put an end to all this?

So many questions, so little answers...

“I left my daughter and my grandson deep in a discussion with Brand, and made some pretence of leaving the Isle. I didn’t, however. I went up into the mountains behind Riva’s city instead and found a quiet place.
Then I crumpled and wept like a broken-hearted child”
- “Belgarath The Sorcerer” by David and Leigh Eddings

"The greatest griefs are those we cause ourselves." - Sophocles

“I wept for a time, but simple weeping seemed too light and innocuous for the overwhelming grief that tore at my heart.

My despair needed a greater outlet.

I went falcon and thrust myself blindly into the air.

Birds of prey do not often scream at night, but I had more than enough reason to scream on that particular occasion.

And so my screams of grief and despair trailed behind me across the dark forest of northern Wacune and on up among the peaks of the Sendarian mountains, where my desolate cries echoed back from the eternal rocks and seared the surface of every glacier inching down every mountain.”

- “Polgara The Sorceress” by David and Leigh Eddings

"We are slow to believe that which if believed would hurt our feelings." - Ovid

"The advantage of the emotions is that they lead us astray, and the advantage of science is that it is not emotional."
- Oscar Wilde

Happy. Joyful. Ecstatic. Sad. Depressed. Grief. Irritation. Anger. Rage. Contentment. Loneliness.

Emotions makes us human. Its what makes us different from machines. No combination of gas, electricity, carbon or liquid, can convey what, how or why we feel. How can one explain emotions? You might as well ask: What, how or why do we breathe air? Emotions are part of our senses; One cannot explain what, how or why we feel.

Our emotions come instinctively. We do not examine the situation, think through the various factors, weigh the pros and cons, and then decide on how we feel. We do not need justification for all our feelings. Material stuff do not always make us happy; In other words, retail therapy is not a definite cure for depression.

"But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve
For daws to peck at: I am not what I am."
- "Othello" by William Shakespeare

Emotions are intangible. They appear and vanish as quickly as summer showers. But despite the intangibility, they are beyond doubt, still there.

They can be hidden by a mask or an iron wall. Once emotions are out of the picture, efficiency is so much higher and you will get things done quicker. But there will always be a chink in the armor. The longer the iron wall is maintained, the bigger the chink will be. Once the weakness is exposed, a torrential flood of emotions can be released, often leaving you a broken person behind.

Emotions can also be displayed proudly. Liberating your emotions will be a freedom, compared to keeping them constantly under check. To show your true honest feelings will also strip away the false front you put on. People will finally recognize your true self. But it is also a sign of vulnerability, and a portent of pain and rejection to come.

"The sign of an intelligent people is their ability to control emotions by the application of reason."
- Marya Mannes

So how does one express his/her emotions? Well, there is always a certain power with words. As you pen in your emotions, your words will convey your heart and feelings. To write with such sincerity and expression will instantly transport the reader to your world. The reader will smile as he/she shares your joy, weep as he/she shares your sorrow and pain, and outrage as he/she shares your troubles.

Music is another form of expression. To sing a happy song and to dance to a quick, delightful beat, expressing your exaltation in living and celebrating your joy. The audience will grin as they hear your melody and see your exuberance in your paces. Or to sing a mournful ballad and to dance with slow, sad strides, conveying your sense of grief and pain. Tears will flow freely as the audience listens to your lament and see your sorrow in your steps.

"Emotions have taught mankind to reason."
- Vauvenargues

Without emotions, we are nothing more than machines. Without emotions, our lives are a blank slate without color. Without emotions, we are fey.

With emotions, we are human.

2007: Two Thousand and Seven; Twenty Oh Seven; Two Oh Oh Seven

The new year starts, and i stumble through wearily from the last year. One of my colleagues has, how shall i put it, rather suddenly and unexpectedly left the company. As a result, Daniel and I were saddled with two extra projects each. The following is an extract of that fateful day:

Boss: *through the intercom* Jason ah, can you come in for a while?

Me: *replying through the intercom* Ok.

I ambled my way to Boss's office, wondering what he needed to tell me. I entered and took a seat opposite him.

Boss: Jason ah. I need you to take over these two projects temporarily for me.

Me: *thinking they are new ones or that boss had too much on his plate and wants me to help him out* Sure. New projects?

Boss: *through the intercom* Daniel, can you come in for a moment? *while waiting for Daniel to make his way in* No, its Michael's last day today.

Me: ??!! *totally taken by surprise*

Daniel ambled into the office and takes the seat beside me.

Boss: Daniel, i need you to temporarily take over these two projects because its Michael's last day today.

Daniel: *totally calm and unflappable* Ok.

As you can see, the news was a complete shocker to us. We thought that he would at least give a month's notice, or a week at the very least. We speculated that our boss must've been looking for a replacement for sometime. And when he did find one, our ex-colleague had no excuse to be around.

With my boss, somehow those "temporarily taken over" projects have a knack for eventually being permanently under us. (-.-) Daniel had the better bargain, if it can be called that. We each had a project which was almost over. Daniel's second project had just started, so it was relatively easy for him. My second project, however, is in the midst of construction, so i have much more to catch up on.

Oh yes. I forgot to mention that the colleague who left, was almost totally incompetent. His workings were in a mess and i had to sort them out somehow.

What a great start to a new year. (-.-)

"If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else." - Laurence J. Peter

“Harper, your song has a sorrowful sound,
Though the tune was written as gay.
Your voice is sad and your hands are slow
And your eye meeting mine turns away.”
- “Dragonsong” by Anne McCaffrey


The end of 2006.


The end of a year.


The end of my studies.


The end of my university life.


The end of my social life.


The end of my love life.


The end of my romance.


The end of my smiles.


The end of my reason to be happy.


The End.


“When Nakor looked back at Magnus, he found the magician lost in thought. Having some idea where those thoughts led, Nakor said, “You should have found another, Magnus.”
Magnus looked down at his former teacher. "Some wounds never heal. You just bind them up and go on with life."”
- “Talon of the Silver Hawk” by Raymond E. Feist

"Millions long for immortality who don't know what to do with themselves on a rainy Sunday afternoon." - Susan Ertz

"Irrigation of the land with seawater desalinated by fusion power is ancient.
It's called 'rain'."
- Michael McClary

Rain. A drizzle. A shower. A downpour. A thunderstorm. The tears of gods. The life-bringer. The banisher of heat and bringer of a cool respite. In Chinese myths, the dragons of the four seas bring rain. In Norse myths, the god, Thor, uses his hammer to produce thunder. In Greek myths, the king of gods, Zeus, hurls lighting bolts as weapons.

"A banker is a fellow who lends you his umbrella when the sun is shining, but wants it back the minute it begins to rain."
- Mark Twain

Have you ever watched from above when it rains? As rain falls, umbrellas emerge. Forming a colorful kaleidescope, its fascinating to watch. Colors bobbing in and out, shifting here and there. It is like watching an giant invisible hand shifting the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, trying to fit each and every one into its proper place.

"Rain, wash away my sorrow,
Take away my pain,
Your love's coming down like rain"
- "Rain" by Madonna

The pitter-patter of rain falling is like the soothing words of a mother to a fretful child. Its musical symphony brings peace and calm into a frantic life. It is probably the best melody of all time and one that would last forever. When you hear it, you know that the world is at right and that all is well.

Have you ever played in the rain? Is it not the most liberating feeling in the world? The feeling that you have braved the elements. The feeling of cool water running through your body. The feeling of freedom and irrational ecstasy. Smiles and grins break out. Chuckles and laughter bubble through the moist air. It seems as though the rain washes away your sorrow and brings a clean new slate.

"'But it always rains when people cry.'
'No, Laura. It rains because you cry.'"
- "Men in Black II"

Rain is also for the sad and depressed. It reflects the melancholy mood. It feels as though the gods share your pain and weep with you. With the rain, the grief intensifies with the feeling of loneliness and desolation. The feeling that your entire being is crying through every pore and skin. The feeling that your grieving heart is heavy with the rain of misery and anguish. The feeling of just wanting to lie there and somehow let the remorse flow out.

"The rain fell alike upon the just and upon the unjust,
and for nothing was there a why and a wherefore."
- W. Somerset Maugham

Rain. It showers on everyone, regardless of status, age or mood. It is one of the few who show true impartiality until the end of time, playing its beautiful melody.

So, what does rain do to you?

"Fortune can, for her pleasure, fools advance, And toss them on the wheels of Chance." - Juvenal

You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. Hhmm... :p

Whither Whence a Winter Wonderland?

It has been a most busy week. Although i've tried to clear as much work as i can, there is still a bit of work thats gonna carry over to next week. I can only hope that its not gonna happen again on a regular basis. -.-

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My colleague was so sick, he only worked for two weekdays. As a result, i had to attend a meeting for one of his projects, on his behalf. Being a bit of a gambler himself, he is quite determined to make up for his loss of pay due to his sickness, by betting on this weekend's soccer matches. :p

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If you just came back from a holiday and was due to set off the next day for a company trip, someone calls you for a favour by doing a bit of work before you go for the company trip, would you be most vexed and sian? And you would most likely take it out on the person responsible, would you not?

That was what happened to me. Only that i was the person responsible. -.-

My boss had asked an officer to takeover a substation for one of my projects. The officer was in the above said circumstances and had agreed as a favour to my boss. So, on Friday, i went down to the site and met up with the officer to inspect and handover the substation.

My first sentence was to apologise to him because the substation wasn't ready.

His reply and first sentence was, "Then what the fark am i here for? I purposely come down as a favour for your boss and now you tell me it isn't ready?"

It went rapidly downhill from there.

A most auspicious start to the end of the year.

Sighz... -.-

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I finally managed to put my photos up, using PhotoBucket instead of Flickr. PhotoBucket's account allows you up to 1 Gb of photos and videos. Flickr? A paltry 20 Mbs. -.-

I've never been really impressed with Yahoo somehow. There are programs out there which are better than it e.g. Google, Hotmail etc etc. And i reckon the slideshow effects for PhotoBucket are a lot more interesting as well. :p

All my photos were taken with my camera-phone. I don't air-brush them coz i've never been bothered to learn Adobe Photoshop. And i don't take pictures of myself, coz i dun want an outbreak of people falling dead when they see how fugly i am.

What you see is what you get. :)

"Sorrow in my soul, Cause it seems that wrong, Really loves my company" - Rihanna

"Belgarath sat on a rumpled cot. His elbows were on his knees, and his face was buried in his hands.

'Grandfather,' Garion said gently.

'What?'

'She wants to talk with you.'

Belgarath lifted his face. His expression was one of mute suffering."
- "Sorceress of Darshiva" by David Eddings

The Spirit of Australia

This afternoon, the weather was absolutely brilliant. The bright sun displaying its full glory and the wind in your hair. Puts me in mind of the summer weather back in Oz.

It was perfect for heading to the beach and lazing out.

Or lying on the grass patch, reading a good book.

Or sitting out in a cafe, having coffee and chatting with friends.

Or a game of soccer.

Or browsing casually through the flea markets.

... ...

Where and what was i doing?

Mundanely heading back to the office to get work done. Sighz...

I miss Australia. -.-

Cogito cogito ergo cogito sum (I think that I think, therefore I think that I am) - Ambrose Bierce

If there is one compulsion of mine, its that I'll almost never pass up the chance to look at books. Be it at a book sale, old or new book stores, markets, whichever. I can be lost in there for hours, searching for particular books or those which interest me.

Which is why, when i saw that the world's largest floating bookstore, the Doulos, was docked at VivoCity, i couldn't resist and went to have a look on Thursday. I headed over after work, and was hoping to buy some books before they close on the 19th Nov.

Sadly for me, the books which they carried, had a religion theme. The closest book i could find that was in my area of interest, was the Lord of the Rings trilogy. -.-

The disappointment i felt was slight. After all, i didn't really think that i would find anything. But as i headed down the departure gangway, i heard something that nearly ruin my whole day.

"This one 'lao-ya' one." ('lao-ya' means lousy for the clueless >.<)

The world's largest floating bookstore comes to town and all you have to say is that the departure gangway is 'lao-ya'?!

And judging by the tone of the offending voice, i deduced it was some old grumpy auntie. Probably typically singaporean, meaning she's probably selfish, inconsiderate, very kiasu, easily biased, only enjoys eating and shopping, and gives a rat's ass about nature and other people.

You all know her. She's the one who steps on your shoes, blissfully unaware of your glare and obvious pain. She's the one who waits in front of the MRT's door, ignoring the yellow line that tells us to give way to exiting passengers. She's the one who rushes into the train the second the doors are open, frantically looking for a seat. She's the one who pushes and shoves in a crowd, without apology nor hesitation.

I could go on.

And so, i shall.

She's the one who snatches items in a sale. She's the same person who bargains loudly down to the last cent in a market/pasa-malam, insisting on her own price. She's the one who barges herself into the front of a crowd, just to find out what's going on. She's the one who thinks that her own race should rule the country and that the other races are either lazy, scheming or suspicious. She's the one who thinks that everything should be done her way, and if it isn't, its 'lao-ya'.

The only reason why that offending remark didn't ruin my day was because VivoCity showcased the Aston Martin DB9 Coupe for the latest James Bond movie, Casino Royale. Aston Martin hasn't changed their signature-style and till today, every single one of their cars are still beautiful.

I wished they could have taken part in the Singapore Motor Show. It would have been a blast. :)

Petrol-Head Time...

Just been to the 8th Singapore Motor Show. It wasn't as crowded as i thought it would be. Took a couple of pictures with my handphone, so i apologize in advance for poor quality. :)

The highlight to me, was of course, the latest Ferrari: F599 GTB Fiorano. With 620 brake-horsepower (bhp), 0-100 km/h acceleration of 3.7s, a top speed of more than 330 km/h and its not-too-shabby looks, it is truly a supercar. I can't wait to see what TopGear thinks of it in its upcoming season. :)

This is the Ferrari F430. Balanced, poised and with the same technology used in Michael Schumacher's F1 car, it will out-turn any car in any corner. It is truly an engineering marvel.

The mad and flamboyant Lamborghini showcased its Gallardo Spyder. Isn't it a thing of beauty? :)

I wasn't planning to take any pictures of Lexus, but this one caught my eye. The car of course, not the girl. It looks fantastic. I don't have any information on it unfortunately.

On the more affordable range, we have the Nissan 350Z. Decent speed and looks too. The car of course, not the girl.

If my guess is correct, this is the same Honda F1 car that Jenson Button used when he won one of the races. That car is all curves and form (the car of course, not the girls >.<), spoiled by a small vertical windscreen. Another affordable car is the Honda S2000. Its double wishbone suspension and X-frame means that it takes a good driver to drive it well. A poor driver will simply be thrown out.

This is the ProDrive P2. Its a one-off and a technological showcase by ProDrive, who tunes cars for Subaru, Aston Martin, Ford, Porsche, Honda and BMW. Its a real pity that they're not gonna make it for road-use. The TopGear presenter, Jeremy Clarkson, drove this car in circles, going faster and faster until it made him throw up. :p

Anyone wanna contribute to the buy-a-car-for-ensui charity? :D

Super Blur Wednesday

Last Wednesday, i had a meeting at 9.30am in the architect's office. After the meeting, three incidences led me to believe that that particular day was the blur-est of my present "job-life":

1. After the meeting, i took the train back. Along the way, i stupidly and rather stone-ly step off at the wrong stop. I realised my blur-ness when i saw the station's name and managed to hop back onto the train. -.-

2. After stepping off at the correct stop this time, i walked back to my office. Along the way, i stupidly and rather stone-ly climbed the wrong flight of steps. I realised my blur-ness when i reached the second storey and thought: Hang on. Those doors and signages don't look right. Have i climbed the wrong flight of steps? -.-

3. After work, on my way back home, i took the train and contemplated my blur-ness. Along the way, i stupidly and stone-ly tried to recall what day it was. I thought: Is today a Monday? Or is it Tuiesday? Hang on. I had a meeting yesterday. So is it a Tuesday? Or is it Wednesday? If its Wednesday, what did i do on Monday? Hhhmmm... -.-

There is seriously no end to my blur-ness. -.-

On a better note, i bought a few new 'toys': A new G15 Logitech keyboard which has glowing blue keys, and another DVD-writer which comes from ASUS and can burn dual-layer dvds.

I can justify my retail therapy: for the new keyboard, my mother and younger brother had asked me to get a new one for the house computer. So I thought I'll buy a new one and let the house computer have my old keyboard. :)

As for the DVD-writer, i had already planned to get a second one for some time now. Reason for doing so was because i wanted to burn DVD from DVD. I chose this particular one mainly coz it was cheap and i rather trust ASUS. The dual-layer burning feature was a nice surprise. :)

I'm a happy blur engineer. :D

A Little Help Goes a Long Long Way...

As i read Ang Ku Kueh's post on the bone marrow drive, i pondered if i should go for it. This morning, i decided.

All it took was my text to confirm my attendance, head down to the place, 5 mins to fill up the form and my signature to say that i was willing to donate my bone marrow, and 5 mins to take my blood sample.


Thats it.


A person could spend 5 mins, a little blood and his/her agreement to help a fellow human being, who is cancer-stricken, probably in pain and bed-ridden.

Or.

A person could be selfish, ignore their cries and pleas for help while trying to wish them all to the moon so that he/she can get on with his/her own life of pursuing his/her own happiness and his/her own ambitions.

Personally, i think the choice is a no-brainer.

I've done my good deed for the day/week/month.

How about you? :)

"You have to play ping pong for 12 hours to lose one pound." So much for exercising. -.-

It has been a draining week for me. I had meetings for various projects from Monday to Wednesday. Came Thursday and Friday, i had to rush on several tasks for my boss and client. I honestly believed that i could've slumped asleep on the floor, on the way home last night.

Next week doesn't seem to look any different, judging from my diary of events.

Oh joy. -.-

Weird Piece of News One:
A couple of weeks back, i hailed a taxi to go for a meeting. Shortly after setting off, the taxi driver suddenly turned to me and asked in mandarin, "Do you like to eat curry?" 0.0

Shocked as i was, i hastily murmured a somewhat affirmative reply. He then proceeded to chat happily on the various food stalls that we passed along the way to my meeting place.

Now. I totally understand that taxi drivers get lonely and want to chat as a way to relieve their boredom. I just wish that they have a better way of starting a conversation.

Turning to your passenger shortly after you pick them up and asking them if they like to eat curry, is not my ideal way of starting a conversation. -.-

Weird Piece of News Two:
We went to visit our malay colleague's house today for a somewhat belated Hari Raya, though it was probably more of an excuse to have a gathering of sorts. :p

I arranged with my friend to meet up at the nearby train station at 12pm, since the visit was scheduled at 1pm. Turned out the train came slow and he texted me to say that he would be late by 15 mins.

When i finally set off and reached there at 12.35ish, thinking i was late and that he had already arrived, it turned out that he was even later. He finally arrived 5mins after i reached the said train station, complaining about how long the train took to arrive.

Since we were planning to take a taxi to our colleague's house, he was to join the taxi queue while i went to buy some chocolates as a gift. When i came out, he had disappeared from the queue and a silver van was frantically horning with its occupants waving hysterically to get my attention.

It turned out to be two of our colleagues who were on their way to the house too. They were suppose to pick up the rest, but took a wrong turn and by sheer chance, saw my friend who told them that i went to buy chocolates. So we went to pick up the rest and went to the house in one big group.

So. In summary, i met up with my friend 40 mins later than arranged, went to buy chocolates while my friend waited for a taxi, and our colleagues saw us at the taxi stand by chance because they took a wrong turn.

Talk about making the right mistakes. -.-

There was an old woman who lived in a shoe...

This is what happened to a pair of shoes which i bought approximately one month ago. -.-

"On the right corner, weighing about 300 grams, winner of the 'Hardworking Shoe Championship' and 'Which Leg Starts First Contest'... ... we hhhaaavvveee The Right Shoe!!!"



"And on the left corner, weighing about 300 grams, winner of the 'One Leg Standing Competition' and 'Best Supporting Shoe Award'... ... we hhhaaavvveee The Left Shoe!!!"



No wonder i was hearing a peculiar sound when i walked. It sounded like someone stepping on a bicycle air pump. >.<

Now i know. It was the sound of the shoes gasping for breath as they teetered on their last legs. :p

Sign on the expressway: Lemmings

It has been approximately one month since i started on my new job and here are reasons why my new job is the best (>.<):

1. I have to climb a hill everyday to take the mrt and four flights of stairs to my office. As a result, i'm sweating reservoirs when i reach my cubicle and i'm told that i've lost weight.

2. We had a sushi company lunch which was probably the healthiest that one can have. Free lunch is always good, albeit a healthy one.

3. We had another company lunch (catered) to bid farewell to the departing engineer. Two free lunches in a month is always good.

4. Due to the small size of the company, i have to learn electrical engineering stuff as well. Things like the substation layout, single-line diagrams, lightning protection and artificial lighting, are being crammed into my puny brain. i swear that when i quit from this job, i can graduate with a EEE diploma, if not a degree.

5. I heard from the designers that in other companies, there will be mechanical and electrical engineers assigned to a project. Here, our engineers are expected to handle both roles. In addition, designers from other companies only specialise in a certain field, like fire protection, water and sanitary, or ACMV. Here, our mechanical designers are expected to handle all the mechanical services.

6. My boss is a humorous person, albeit a demanding one. He often uses metaphors and examples to explain his point. There was once when we were discussing if we needed lightning protection for the swimming pool railings in a particular project. He told us this: if a person in a swimming pool dies because of a lightning strike, no one will care coz that person is stupid enuff to be in the pool during a lightning strike. However, if a person at the swimming pool deck dies becuase of a lightning strike, then there will be an investigation. Faced with such a point, we had no choice but to concede that he's right.

7. You get to hear all kinds of stories from the construction industry. We were told that a particular condominium project, during piling, had shifted two units by a 100 mm. The foreman knew of this mistake, but ordered work to be carried on. When they built to the third or fourth floor, the structural engineer found out and told them to demolish and redo.

Random Rumblings, Ravings and Rantings...

Rumblings:
Went to sit in for another meeting today. It is a relatively simple project, which had already started sometime ago. My colleague, who is gonna quit at the end of the month (i'm suspecting i'm replacing her >.<), had already done most of the work for me. Hence, there was little for me to do but listen and take notes when she told me of our responsibilities in the project.

Along the way to the site (which was in Tuas >.<) and back to the office, we chatted and she tried to allay my fears of screwing things up and gave a few pointers on the job scope (my friend had told me recently that during school days, if we get something wrong, marks got deducted, now if we get something wrong, it will be far far worse >.<).

I was also informed that the calculation of air-conditioning was a simple formula. (-.-)

In my last university session, my lecturer had given us an assignment to calculate the power of the air-conditioning in a section of the university library. Me and my friends spent ALOT of time and effort pouring over the long list of the various formulas and steps taken. And to think that the company actually reduced it all down to ONE single formula.

Thats really depressing. (-.-)

Rantings:
When i was serving my national service, i wanted to enter a combat unit coz i felt i could learn more (but it required me to stay-in and only book out on weekends >.<). My original posting was a base unit, which allowed me to book out everyday. When one of my friends offered to swap his posting with me, i jumped at the chance. Many of my friends thought i was crazy but till now, i don't regret my decision.

Yes, i'm still crazy. (-.-)

The reason why i'm bringing this up is this: When i was at the base unit temporarily, i found that the daily booking out caused me to be scatter-brained and start thinking of stupid things (like being paranoid and far-fetched stuff >.<). However, when i was in the combat unit, i was surrounded by my friends and things to do. Their constant company kept me sane and life was simple, if not monotonous and mundane. i became more focused and didn't think of stupid things coz i had constant company.

Right now, i wished i could do the same. When i head home after work these days, i start to think of stupid things again. Stuff like 'what if' and remembering our three years of love.

Yes, its really depressing too. (-.-)

Rantings:
In secondary school, i had an interesting chat with my friend. He wondered if in the future, one would be able to purchase 'time' like a commodity. I had refuted that notion coz 'bad' people would be able to use it to further their evil designs. My friend retorted that the police would be able to purchase 'time' as well to stop the 'bad' people. That statement certaintly shut me up. (-.-)

The reason for such stupid thoughts (see? I told i'm thinking stupid stuff these days >.<) is coz i saw a article on the web that the american police are starting to collect the DNA from everyone. The person who raised the issue up, was undoubtedly an american, for he was outraged by it.

Personally, i'm not bothered by it. I mean, our police force has a collection of every citizen's fingerprints. In my opinion, thats no different to having your DNA taken. If you're not gonna commit a crime, why should you be afraid? Some might say that its our right to refuse, but if it helps the police track down the criminal, why should we refuse?

Back to main point of how this article made me remember my secondary school days conversation.

If the police were to have a collection of everyone's DNA, would it really help? I'm sure in the future, criminals would be able to wipe off all signs of their DNA at the crime scene. I won't be surprised if such a notion has already happened. If it is possible to change your DNA even slightly, that would simply render the collection of DNA as good as the collection of fingerprints: it would help, but probably not as much as it should be.

Yes, thats the third depressing point. (-.-)

*pensive sigh*

Herein ends the explanation of some random, depressing bits in my rather mundane life.

Days of sheer unmitigated blah

Apologies.

I know i'm suppose to concentrate on my new job, post stuff on how irritating my job/colleagues are, and to get over my break-up. If so, you might wanna skip reading this post. If not, read on at your own risk.

“Don’t leave me alone
The cry in the night
Of anguish heart-striking
Of soul-killing fright.
Live for my living
Or else I must die
Don’t leave me alone.
A world heard that cry.”
- “Dragonsinger: Harper of Pern” by Anne McCaffrey

“I walked fast because I wanted to be exhausted by nightfall. I made sure that I was too tired to dream. The only trouble with that plan lay in the fact that everything in the Vale aroused memories of Poledra. Have you any idea how many snowy owls there are in this world?”
- “Belgarath The Sorcerer” by David and Leigh Eddings

“‘The tears I feel today
I’ll wait to shed tomorrow
Though I’ll not sleep this night
Nor find surcease from sorrow.
My eyes must keep their sight:
I dare not be tear blinded.
I must be free to talk
Not choked with grief, clear minded.
My mouth cannot betray
The anguish that I know.
Yes, I’ll keep my tears till later:
But my grief will never go.’
- Menolly’s ‘Song for Petiron’”
- “Dragonsinger: Harper of Pern” by Anne McCaffrey

“Juggling comes naturally to everyone. We juggle our friends, keeping one in the air while we squeeze attention from another. We juggle our work with pleasure, our needs with our shame, and even our love with our hate. Everyone juggles, all of us trying to keep as many balls in the air as possible, trying to grab at each opportunity before it comes crashing down at our feet.”
- “Tanis: The Shadow Years” by Barbara Siegel and Scott Siegel


On MSN...

adam said: Got your sights on a new woman yet? Get back on the horse if ya fall off cowboy

Jason: trying to occupy myself said: Nah. I dunnoe if i can find another girl like her and if i WANT to find someone like her.


Yesterday with friends...

Friend: Try and find another one lor.

Me: Its not as easy as it sounds. We’ve been together for long. You just can’t say find another one, means find another one lor.


The above quotes from books and conversation with friends describes my feelings at the moment. With my new job at the moment, it does help keep my mind off things. But there are so many things that remind me of us when we were together.

There is only so much that a job can help keep one's mind off, i suppose. *melancholy sigh*

Sign on the expressway: Why do you do this everyday?

You know Singapore is really really small when your australian university classmate applied for the same job as you.

I neglected to post earlier that my classmate had applied for the same job and was scheduled to have an interview at the same time as me. Because i was early, during my interview, the boss had actually asked me if i knew him and asked if i could work with him.

This friend was the same one whom i had whing-ed about having bad referencing techniques in my earlier post. (-.-)

In order not to be rude and start slamming him, i simply said "we have different working styles" (i'm sorry, but i just couldn't bring myself to say that he's absolute rubbish and that he shouldn't be hired at all >.<).

His grades weren't as good as mine and he graduated without any honours. While the boss had offered me the job immediately, he didn't do so for my friend. He told my friend that he'll interview one more person before deciding.

On one hand, for obvious reasons, i wasn't really looking forward to working with him. On the other hand, at least i would see a friendly face when i come to work for the first few weeks.

In the end, he did get the job. And by some weird coincidence, we both wore a long-sleeve shirt with almost the same shade of blue on the first day of work. What a great start to my new job. (-.-)

Yesterday on the first day of work, during orientation...

Colleague: This is Mr XXX. These are the new engineers, Jason and Daniel.

Mr XXX: Hello. *shake hands* Wah. You two wear the same shirt ah?

Me: *mutters* Yeah. Come from the same university mah.

In the boss's office,

Boss: Daniel ah. Here are some simple projects for you to look through. *hands over two projects* They are very simple. Too simple, in fact. Jason ah. I give you something more complicated. *hands over one of the projects*

Me: 0.o *thinking: oohh ffarrkk*

Today at the office, after i returned from the toilet,

Daniel: Eh. Just now boss came by and said that he wants you to come along to one of his meetings to understudy him. He's gonna leave now, i think.

Me: Heh? You leh? You not coming ah?

Daniel: No leh. *shakes head*


Apparently, my boss had high expectations of me. I really hope i can fufill his expectations and not disappoint him. Haiz... (>.<)

P.S: Oh yeah, i forgot to explain what my job entails. Basically, we help large buildings to design and coordinate their water, electricity, sanitary, fire protection and HVAC (Heating, Ventilation and Air-Conditioning) systems. It is more of a project management role coz we'll liason with the cilent, architect, structural engineer, as well as the Singapore Power, Singapore Telcom and other various government services.